I’m writing this from a time where it feels like my back is up against a wall. A moment where encouraging words … like “it’s going to be better” or “it’ll all workout in the end” from people who already made it pass this stage, isn’t working. Telling you to hold on but our lives look totally different. And maybe when you read this I may be one of those people. But as you’re reading this I want you to picture me in this current position.
Currently I am 23 years old… single … a nanny … I live with my sister and her family… part time college student.. doesn’t have much money in my bank account.. and to society have nothing to “show.” But yet God has given me a promise that I hold to when this is my current reality.
There’s a side of me that is tired. My fight feels like I’m being beat down. I’m not rushing my process but I want more for myself. And I’m ready to serve and help. But yet even though I think I’m ready it feels like God thinks differently.
And everybody will point out the obvious and say talk to God about it but I already do that. And I tell him everything and what I’m feeling. But reality is still there. And we still have to go through struggles, trials, and tribulations because he never promised rays of sunshine everyday.
That’s what I want to talk about ….
When you’re life looks nothing like what God has said about you . Make God the center focus. Hold on to His words. And I will be honest it’s not easy. Everybody wants to show the good times of a Christ walk but it’s not always good times. There’s bad times and this very moment is one . You face a lot of let downs in the process and in that moment when life feels like it’s crashing down we make the circumstances bigger. Well at least I know I do. I cry and feel hurt but I’ve learned that yes my emotions are real but I don’t have to dwell there. I give myself a moment to let it out but I remind myself of the goodness of God. I bring God back to the center and speak his words over myself. AND stay in your Bible! That is one of the strongest weapon that you can hold on to in the midst of hard times. ALL times!
Hold on to that faith. Knowing that at the end of it all you’re coming out victorious! And I know in the moment it feels like that’s not going to help. But I’m right with you, literally writing this with tears down my eyes. We can be at peace knowing that our lives is in his hands. And when we let go and be content in every circumstance we can be okay and know that through the hurt, pain, let down, and tears He is still sovereign.
He is still the God that kept his promises throughout the Bible so we know we can stand on his words. God never promised that we wouldn’t go through the trials but He promised that He will always be our healer, way maker, and our comforter. Most importantly be by your side every step of the way. It may seem like he’s not moving on your behalf but I promise He is working.
The obstacles are the preparation that develops elevation.
Trust me. Hold on. Don’t give up.
Talk to you soon, Key Lashaye 🖤
