A couple days ago, I had a breakdown and I honestly wasn’t going to share it. This one I was going to keep to myself but I bring all my truth to this website when it comes to my growth and my story.
I wanted to create some content to post. And it didn’t end the best of course, but there was a lesson in it. In a recent post, Life Lately, I talked about how I felt the need to fit into my calling or be good enough. When I looked at myself in those pictures I didn’t see Keyotta. I seen what society deemed as good enough. Before all of this I never wanted to fit in and I embraced being me. Of course there was times when I struggled but for the most part I just lived my life. I was me. Take it or leave it.
But somehow I started to feel that I needed to be desired by others in fashion or fit into a category for me to grow a following. Not knowing I was conforming myself to the world when our father tells us we’re supposed to be set apart and that we’re the light of the world. It took me breaking down to God and telling him if you’ve called me to this you have to carry me and show me your vision. Because your girl was struggling and what I was doing wasn’t working. I felt I didn’t add value or that I was just some girl trying to ride the wave to be like everyone else.
God started to show me the person he sees me as. BIGGER. And this version of me was authentic. She didn’t put herself in box. She was a woman of God but fashionable.
And I realized….. In order for me not to influenced by the world, I need to take a step back from watching others or what everyone else is wearing. Authentic is the best.
Oh, it’s not easy either. Because we live in a time where sexy gets the views and attention. And it’s so easy to get swept into becoming what we see since the access is right in our hands. But I decided kingdom over culture and integrity over sexy. So setting boundaries and self discipline is the key to walking into destiny.
Also, I want it to be known that I’m not perfect and I don’t know it all. And you may think differently but what’s important is that we are lead by Holy spirit and what’s right for us as an individual 🤍.
So yeah. Let the journey to evolving begin…
Talk to you soon, Key Lashaye🖤
