Currently sitting here staring at my paper for like 5 minutes.
Change is uncomfortable
After a year break, I started school again but this time it’s so different. I’m completely online, community college, slower pace, and a whole different major. At some points it’s overwhelming because it’s not what I’m used to. It’s uncomfortable!
This leads to my point today…
The assignment
Our first assignment sounds so easy to do and for someone else it probably is. To be honest, I thought so too. Our professor told us a story about her path in life that shaped her into the person she is today. I literally loved it! Now my part is to do the same by telling 10-20 most significant moments in my life.
The challenge
The past isn’t the problem. The challenge started to hit when I had to think about the “tomorrow.” I made a habit to continue to remind myself daily not to focus on tomorrow or the future. Matthew 6:25-34 reads,“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Therefore, how do I even try to create a timeline of future plans when they are in God’s hands? Of course there are things that I do know because of Him but I don’t know every detail. Then worse, put a time stamp on it! As I’m trying to attempt to write out a plan that includes NUMBERS it leads to stress. It’s something about numbers that takes things to a whole other level. This walk that I’m on isn’t just a normal walk in society today where education gets me to my destination. My life, my career, and literally everything depends on God and his timing. And I know you may be thinking girl it’s just an assignment it’s not that deep. But it is that deep. Just a year ago, the only timeline I created for myself and knew didn’t go according to plan. For a minute that ruined me. Now I’m supposed to bring up those old thoughts and actions that I worked to let go for a grade! How do I not feel those emotions or slip into dwelling on time again?
*takes a step back*
Completed assignment thoughts
I said all that say, when you have to do anything that reminds you of what you overcame, look to God. Take a step back, pray, and ask the Holy Spirit to help you. At first you may get a little worried but don’t dwell on the task or situation, and during the process remind yourself that you are a conqueror. You can do anything through Christ that strengthens you. To others it may be small but nothing is too little or childish to bring to God.
Remember to keep Matthew 6:25-34 in your heart if you’re ever in a situation like me and start to worry about tomorrow.
Talk to you soon, Key Lashaye 🖤
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Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV® Copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc.®
