Something is off. But where exactly did it all go wrong?
In the past, my first instinct was to look at God and blame him, but knowing who He is. I know His original plan, vision, and purpose hasn’t changed. But have I?
I think so. And I think I know exactly where it all began. I tried to find a million ways to say this but I think I’ll just explain it the best way I can.
When I started this I had no role models. No blue print to follow. Just my experiences. I didn’t even read blogs before I started this. Had no clue about them. And when we’re not sure about our own self or our work, we try looking for an answer in someone else. Especially if how they are doing it is working for them. Resulting in self doubt, thinking maybe my approach is wrong. Am I wrong for not only talking about God? Maybe the way I have been doing it isn’t going to help people come to God. These were all questions inside.
Seeing fellow Christians go so hard and their platform only being about God and the church made me look at myself; saying well maybe that’s how it’s suppose to be done. And my writing shifted.
I still love those writings but I feel like my authenticity slowly left the building. It wasn’t me.
I’m not a preacher or a teacher. This was an outlet….
You know the conversation a while back about Christian creators vs content creators who are Christian. I get it now. There is a difference, and I am a Christian who creates. I share how God is influencing all the areas of my life, what I’m passionate about, and the changes as I go.
It just all boils down to Key be confident in what God gave you. Be sure of yourself. And stay true to yourself. You’re not them. You are Keyotta, and how you write/ create is enough because it’s personal. It fits your personality! It’s how you see the world. It’s the way God created you. The missions he gives us are uniquely designed. You’re not wrong nor are they.
I think as I live more, I realize authenticity shows up in so many different ways. First, it was about me being who I am. Right now, authenticity is doing what feels right to me. I think knowing who I am allowed me to see wait this doesn’t sound like me. It doesn’t feel genuine.
And Maybe you felt that way before. Thinking your way is wrong but it’s not. Stay true to what God placed in your heart. And continue to show up in the world as you. Because you’re enough.
Talk to you soon, Key Lashaye 🖤
