I recently hit an accomplishment that at one point in this journey seemed so close but still felt out of reach. I had imagined how I would feel in that moment. Would it fuel me to do more? How would my life change because of it ?
Now that it actually happened; I took the moment to bask in it. Key how do you feel?
I realized nothing about me changed. Yes it’s exciting to see that number. But I’m not any less worthy. It doesn’t make me better than anyone else. It doesn’t change who I am to the core. I’m the same today as I was yesterday.
When I take away the exterior. Accomplishments. How much money I have. The clothes. The numbers. What I do. The material things that deem us successful. Am I okay? Yes
I’m okay because according to my father I am already enough. I am loved. So there’s nothing I have to do to win, or be separated from, his love. (according to Romans 8:31-39) My Identity isn’t rooted in the things that I do or have. It’s rooted in Christ, and what he is already done for me to be free.
I live by kingdoms standard, and not the world’s.
I believe if I kept following the worlds standard , and chase the external it would never be enough. The hype of working towards something is gone once I hit that goal. So what do I do next? Chase the next thing. And that becomes a never ending cycle.
The truth is when I was searching and only putting my hope in seeing God move in the external. I would never be satisfied. My worship was based off feeling. “When God do this, then I will… “I always found something to complain about. Or I was constantly wondering why it wasn’t working. Or how it/ I should be farther than what I am now.
Something had to change… My perspective
A partnership : he leads; I follow
I needed to change my position. Get back in place. And know what I can/ cannot control.
Partnering with God has allowed me to trust him to take care of all the growth. Because he is the only one who has control over that. As much as we try, we can’t force Gods hands. (1st Corinthians’s 3:7 “so neither the one who plants nor the one who water is anything, but only God, who makes things grow.”) Hear me, I HAVE TRIED. It won’t work.
So therefore, I focus on making my heart a dwelling place so which he can flow through easily. I allow him to show me the areas that need tending to. Helping me to die to my flesh daily, and be a good person. I do my best to be part of the good. Spreading his love. Bearing fruit. And work on the responsibilities that he has assigned to me. That’s it! That’s all I can do!
Stay in your lane
When I live in this posture. I am able to be free. Not bound by the outcomes because I can’t control it so why I am spending that time trying to get in Gods way. It’s not my lane. And honestly, I believe any miracles, increase, blessings, testimony, hardships, etc isn’t for me. It’s for the next person to see who God is. The source of everything. It’s not for me to boast because it doesn’t belong to me. My life… this opportunity.. these gifts…all of this is because of his grace. It’s belongs to him because I am depended on my father. All of these things can be gone tomorrow so I can’t base my happiness on “things.” Or as we say, external success.
With all the being said, my prayer has been God bless me however you will Lord; you know me better than I know myself. So I thank you for what you give unto me.
in Jesus name amen
So now what do we go after?
Talk to you soon, Key Lashaye 🖤
