I recently posted pictures on instagram, but the kicker is, it took almost a whole 24 hours to appreciate the post.
To a person who doesn’t care about socials would think I am crazy because it’s not that hard. But it is! This is an outlet for me just like any other creator. I see it as an avenue to lead to many more paths. Which is why I take it very serious and often time I find it very hard to appreciate the moment because my mind is so crowded with all the thoughts of “lack of” or the low performance. *shameless plug* My latest series The Resistance, I talk about breaking those habits of the negative thinking and learning to trust God. And I’m still a working progress. OBVIOUSLY.
However, my mind was just crowded with all of the reasons to give up, to feel like the work I put in was a waste of time, and how it looks like Im out of my mind to believe. They drowned out the reasons to be grateful.
See in life, consumers see the final result of the moment. You’ll think it was very simple, easy, and to the point like anybody can do it. Well that’s false. No one sees the journey it took to get there. But thats why I am here! so let’s get in my business AGAIN.
You see these pictures.
What you don’t see is the months (really years) that I lost the girl you see now. Physically she didn’t feel like herself, financially she left the building because it was hard balancing investing into her dreams while life responsibilities still coming, and discouraged by the outside voices. She focused on the writing more; not realizing she was losing part of her creative passion because she still quite didn’t understand how to correlate the two. She just didn’t know how to take up her space.
It was years of letting everything stand in the way of becoming her. And it almost happened again. But thank God for the work that has been put in!
Getting out of the Funk
Like I previously stated, I focused on those negative thoughts until I signed out of IG, turned on the music, and decluttered my room (it’s crazy how this always help). Now I could think. Scrolling through my camera roll, I stopped and stared at myself.
Finally, I could say “girl I’m proud of you!” It took a longggg journey to get back to you but the consistency paid off. Sticking to the commitment does have its rewards. So keep thanking God, celebrating yourself, and the wins. PERIOD!
My reminder to you: celebrate the wins
If you made it this far, don’t give up. Even if you’re not fully there yet. Find a reason to be proud of yourself. We overlook the reasons to smile because we’re so focused on BIG. But let’s try something new and take out the “size,” and celebrate just wins in general. Stay consistent!
Talk to you soon, Key Lashaye🖤
