I’m in a phase where I’m not sure where this website leads to. I don’t have it altogether. There’s time when I question myself. Did I hear God correctly? Are the concepts cohesive? It’s everything I love but is it confusing to someone else? The mission? Should I just stop and shut it down?
It’s all these questions but it’s a reflection of my heart changing. My direction of purpose for this website has evolved. It’s sharing every phase of my life as I walk out my journey in life. I love to also show the creative process of my thoughts about style. It’s not so much of a profit move but a service and authentic place for others to know they’re not alone or get inspired. To know that our lives may perceive to be “perfect” on the outside but the truth is life is hard sometimes, and it’s okay. That’s just how it works.
I only pray that one day when more eyes come I don’t shrivel up because of the rejection or opinions of culture. I pray for protection and covering from my father. I also pray and hope to stay real and don’t fake it. Sometimes I think I’m sharing too much or went way too deep, and I question if I’m not suppose to do that. Should I be more light hearted? But it just comes so naturally. I write from the heart and this is the space I’m in with life.
There’s no direction for this post. Just a random brain dump to be real and say I have no clue what I’m doing and I almost shut it down but I can’t give up. Even if no one reads this, it’s my safe place for now. I trust that my father has plans to prosper me and not to harm me. It’s a reason for this even if I don’t see it this season.
