Have you ever felt like you were stuck?
well …
That’s me. My focus has been out of line. My work ethic has been slacking. I feel there is more out there for me but how do I reach it? And usually we, as humans, want to put the blame on something else for our why but I blame myself. Part of the reasons are faith with minimal works, letting the views get in my head, comfort, and taking advantage of the glimpse. And it took unpacking my mind and habits to realize my wrongs. So let’s dive into my thoughts.
Faith With Minimal Works
What usually shows when someone wants it bad enough?
Their work and the time they put in.
For so long, I scream I have faith, which I do, but also this is collab with God. I should be doing more to prepare and show God that I am serious about living out his vision for my life. It starts with my discipline. There is no one telling me to do it or creating me a schedule. It’s all self discipline and it’s been a struggle for me. And can I be honest? The truth is, there are parts of your calling that you don’t always like or want to do. Example, I love writing on paper and seeing the final draft but I don’t always want to sit in front of a screen, organize my thoughts, be vulnerable, or edit. I do it because it’s God’s grace that he chose me and I still love it. And I hope one day, someone will be encouraged and know there is purpose in the process.
Views
That leads to the low views. It’s more easier to keep showing up or putting in the time when you see progression or an impact. That’s just a part of human nature, we look for validation or the harvest of our work. I go through seasons when it’s easy to keep going without seeing any fruit because I know my father’s promise. But there are times when I get into my head and very few people talks about this part, so I will.
I’ll share, on my Instagram, that a new post went live and I guarantee you only 3 people will take the time to read it, and majority of the people click right through the Instagram story. And it hurts because these are people I actually know so I start to question myself after months of this. Why even share it if no one cares? Or wants to read these days. Everybody watches videos, so what’s purpose to this anyways?
It’s my why. The reason I wanted to do it in the first place. Not for validation but because I truly have a passion for it. And the confirmation from my father. It’s what you do in the dark that God takes note of. He wants to see how you handle the opportunity, develops humility, and your character before the light is shown. So I encourage you to keep the faith. Don’t do it for man’s applause, fame, money, or personal gain but our father’s, God, approval and glory. He sees you, and I promise if He gave you the vision it will not go unnoticed. Keep the faith. Keep going! Don’t give up in the development. Sometimes you have to be your own cheerleader in the process.
Comfort
My third battle has been my comfort zone. Creating the blog and even posting about it now is still uncomfortable but it has gotten easier since not many eyes are on me. But when we are stationary it becomes a dangerous playing field. Yes being stationary for a certain period of time is okay depending on God’s control and circumstances. However, for me, it’s been almost a year and I get frustrated with God even through my faith and steadfast. Although sometimes you have to check yourself. Because what if God is waiting for you to make another step of faith?
See with this walk with God, you can be moving but not progressing. God doesn’t want us to stay the same over time, you have to make a shift. Or I should say elevate. And I’m not saying if God doesn’t show up on your timeline, do something out of his will. You have to pray and use discernment. So if you feel that nudge from Holy spirit, whatever it may be, apply more pressure (or try again with more effort). And that shift for me, is a step in area that I have avoided because it’s easier to stay with familiarity. But in order to elevate, we have to move up a level. What shift needs to take place for you?
Advantage of the Glimpse
Wow! This last one I wasn’t sure if I wanted to share. This is what makes it so dangerous for me not to take a step. So a little backstory, in 2020 I had an idea to start this blog but it wasn’t until several months later that God sent me a confirmation to my prayers. So with that, I know my God is working everything together for my good and it’ll be victorious. But it brought back to my remembrance that the idea was God putting a vision in me and I took that step and moved on the idea before I truly knew it was from him because it felt right.
Where my wrong has been, is that my fire has died down. Not purposely though. Its like if you had this idea to turn a passion into a business and you feel like you’re going to have to make your idea come to life on your own. So you work extra, put time in, brainstorm, and come up with your money on your own. Meanwhile you’re coming to your parents with the idea, since they have the resources and can help, and they don’t say anything. You feel ignored but you were still persistent with coming to them about it. And then one day, the say it’s going to work, you won’t have to worry about anything, they’ll invest in the business, and all you have to do is make the product. Because you know that you don’t have to make it happen on your own you slow down and get a little too comfortable.
That’s me. Am I not putting in enough effort because I know the promise?
Yes, and that’s where I took advantage of it. Just because I know it’s all in my father’s hands doesn’t mean I don’t have to work hard. I was ashamed of this but I openly shared it because sharing my mistakes and my lessons is part of my truth. I never want people to think this journey is always sunshines and linear. I too mess up or feel like I get off course.
Just know it’s okay to not get it right on the first go. Writing your wrongs and learning from it is the beauty of the journey. God doesn’t work with perfect. He can only work with your truth. Even if its ugly.
Talk to you soon, Key Lashayeđź–¤
